Superpowered Mind with Clare Dimond

Listener question: can you say more about body sensations and reality? 

Listener Question:Generally, life’s mirror reflects worry, doubt and perfectionism in relationships which makes spending large chunks of time on my own much easier and mostly a relief.  However, I wonder if I’m missing out through ignorance of what healthy relationships can be like.  Since there’s only now, and only our current state of learning and readiness, how is space created for patterns of belief to be shed?  I can absolutely see and hear the self in this, and wonder if these glaring relationship difficulties are an insistent clarion call from life to trust that every experience is in my favour, no matter how overwhelming they feel, and to recognise that I am strong enough to feel the discomfort and uncertainty of real, seismic change.

Listener question: I suddenly had an awareness of my mother as a young mother, and saw that her bursts of anger came from her anxiety and self doubt as a parent (she's spoken to me often as an adult about the self-doubt she had, but I'd never connected it to her anger).  I don't think that I've ever realised how early on that experience was there for her, and I have the deepest compassion for her, knowing how locked into her reality she must have been from such early days - without the hint of a different space to live from. Can this "knowing" be true?  Or is it at the level of the self identity?    it seems to me that it bypasses the self - how could it be at the level of self if there's nothing to protect or seek comfort for?  

listener question: Can you talk about fear generated from flashbacks? It seems life flows along and contact with family members which is regular, unfortunately, undoubtedly triggers remembrances of a traumatic, cruelty filled childhood and young adulthood.Once the thought storm is triggered, it's almost impossible to step out of the loop and fear takes over. Fear of insanity too, because other family members don't have the same experience.Decades of techniques and therapy have not erased the horror film from the memory bank. There's effort to honor the feelings now and let them go, but (here's the big but that you speak of) they come back in the form of other memories. Is it just a matter of time? How long must this go on? I'm no spring chicken and I've had enough.Amazingly, the fear hasn't stopped me from having a full life, but life experiences have always been tainted by the fear, anxiety and depression that visits regularly.Any wisdom will be appreciated.

Listener question: A couple of years ago i participated in a course that was all about accepting feelings in the body. So every day i meditated and tried to feel what was going on in my body. But instead of feeling things, my mind just became so stirred up that i got very depressed. Now when i hear you say: “just feel it”, i notice the depression coming up again. I’m scared of it. The last time it wasn’t helpfull at all to explore my feelings. So why would this time be different? When I ‘zoom in’ on Anxiety, i get really identified with it. Then it’s all about me. And that’s when i get very lost. Not talking about it - not being focussed on it - seems to do a better job then the zooming in. 

Listener question: When there has been a lot of conditioning of random physical punishment in early years, and that resulted in a belief of being inherently bad and wrong, almost like it’s lodged into the physical body. Is then this understanding strong enough to unravel this physical visceral memory? 

I write to you as I’m finding the FEAR course really challenging!  Although I feel like running as far away from the course as possible, I’m sticking with it because a part of me knows there is more to see here.Am I to suppose that I’m feeling uncomfortable because there’s a recognition that I’ve lived in fear for most of my life? I guess I’ve thought it was somehow protecting me? Something inside me tells me that I’ve never ‘allowed’ myself to even begin to shine a light on all of this as it’s too painful to see what might be revealed! Having suffered loss of very dear loved ones and having had health issues myself,  have and still do at times feel broken. I think I’m beginning to see that I have a very deep rooted fear of illness and death.... I’m guessing that I see this as the ultimate separation, of which I’m terrified!!?I think I’m still at the stage of searching for an escape from this unbearable pain, looking for the ‘answer’ in the next podcast/webinar...  a hope that you, Clare, will tell me what to do! I know that’s not possible but a pointer in the right direction would be gratefully received!So, I suppose I’m asking whether by just staying in this conversation, that over time, I’ll see more of who I really am and old beliefs will fall away and I’ll rediscover who I really am? I feel confused and my anxiety is heightened at present. I cannot see that I’m not real just now. This is messing with my head!

Listener question - the REAL course seems to look away from ME and into the dissolution of self which I seemed to feel more comfortable with, but this course is turning to and focusing on ME, my actual fear, fear of showering alone, fear of going out alone etc  and most importantly fear of me/of reality.  I feel quite numb and a bit detached/lost.  I usually cant wait for the next days video but am not interested (this isn't the correct word I want as its more impersonal than that).   I don't want to stop the course but I guess just wanted to share this with you.  I have also seen that I have many more fears than the one I thought of, the main thing in my life (or so I thought).  There are fears of my child going to Uni, fear of my youngest going back to school, fear of my mother getting older, fear around money, fear of not having many friends and of not feeling I am able to rectify this through joining groups or going to work.   ITS ALL FEARS!!!  Help!

Listener question: Exhibiting symptoms of fear and suffering were so dangerous in my formative experience that I’m not sure I recognise when I’m suffering/feeling fear - habits of window dressing and toughing it out would seem to be so ingrained - but I’m wondering if the strong aversion I feel (and subsequent avoiding action I take) to a range of experiences of ‘other’ is suffering in disguise?  

Listener question: "Would it ultimately be cruel or healing  to try to go cold turkey on these avoidance/ cleaning rituals? Is that what I need to do  to finally fully rewire my cells and brain patterns to know it is all my imagination today?  In other words, is it really true that my avoidance/cleaning habits are actually numbing techniques that are keeping the PTSD “self” lodged deeper in place?