Looking away from ME vs honouring ME

Listener question - the REAL course seems to look away from ME and into the dissolution of self which I seemed to feel more comfortable with, but this course is turning to and focusing on ME, my actual fear, fear of showering alone, fear of going out alone etc  and most importantly fear of me/of reality.  I feel quite numb and a bit detached/lost.  I usually cant wait for the next days video but am not interested (this isn't the correct word I want as its more impersonal than that).   I don't want to stop the course but I guess just wanted to share this with you.  I have also seen that I have many more fears than the one I thought of, the main thing in my life (or so I thought).  There are fears of my child going to Uni, fear of my youngest going back to school, fear of my mother getting older, fear around money, fear of not having many friends and of not feeling I am able to rectify this through joining groups or going to work.   ITS ALL FEARS!!!  Help!