Superpowered Mind with Clare Dimond

 I have read all of your books but one and I get glimpses but the books (and the course I took) tend to make me think more and get conceptual. Is your goal here to really to have many of us awaken during the course or learn more about awakening?

Busting Loose from the Money Game by Robert Scheinfeld Every Sunday we will look at a book that is relevant to this conversation. 

Your habit is not “you” and it is not personal. It is simply your brain doing what it does.Dr Amy JohnsonWe are beginning a series called Wonder-Full Words. Each Saturday we will look at a particularly powerful sentence or quote, wherever possible exploring it directly with the author. Today's words are from Dr Amy Johnson, author or the Little Book of Big Change and Just a Thought.   https://dramyjohnson.com

I am in part aiming to transition from a career in the corporate world to a career in the third sector after voluntary work in the sector. I find myself naturally moving in that direction and really energised. One question I have been contemplating is the significant disparity in pay between the two sectors. I can see that money is a concept and as such nothing about it is ‘true’ and yet it doesn’t seem to make sense that they should be so differently paid. I appreciate that there are narratives/ beliefs around the third sector being short of money and people working in the sector get paid in fulfilment and yet I feel by accepting these and the salary that comes with them I am seeing the beliefs as true and being constrained by them. I can see at times a sense of ego popping up feeling it deserves more money and is ashamed it will not get this but when this isn’t so strong I can see that there is information in this which may be helpful. Would love to hear your thoughts on this.

A brief summary of this episode

I have a question about fear and avoidance. I heard you say to ask what the fear is and do it anyway and this will transform something. I have panic attacks as soon as I have a session (I am a therapist, or I was, because I stopped doing it). I just couldn’t tolerate this feeling anymore. I inquired into it (I feared I will die or dissolve), I felt the body sensations ( a lot, because this is where I come from as a body and movement therapist), later, when I came across the 3P I tried to see it as just thought (didn’t work), I did all sorts of traume therapy and looked at this as a client, but nothing ever helped, it got even worde and worse.  I did go on with working as a therapist anyway over years and despite feeling always better after the session (maybe just because it was over), it never improved, I was terrified before each appointment. At one point I just couldn’t stand the severe symptoms anymore and decided to stop. This was a big relief.I thought this was maybe just the way life told me to not do this anymore. I teach apprentice therapists now in different skills like psychopathology and movement analysis, and although it’s fun and I don’t have panic attacks before teaching I feel like it’s a bit meaningless and not really using all I know and sometimes I find myself envying people who work as therapists or coaches, although I don't want to go back there. I’m totally confused about what life wants to show me here. Maybe you see something.

It seems we are consistently questioning reality in this understanding. Is there a potential in this of gaslighting ourselves? The question comes up in view of adverse childhood experiences. When we are babies and our identity hasn’t formed yet and our primary care takers are confused and traumatised themselves, the main survival mechanism for the brain is to conclude that „I am bad“ and later „the world is dangerous“. That seems to be running deep in the system. Sometimes when I immerse myself in this teaching, I feel like it’s confusing me more and I’m afraid of gaslighting myself into „everything is not as it seems, hence my perspective, voice, input is not valid“ along these lines. 

About ADHD. Several years back i was told by psychiatrist i could have ADD (the more "dreamy' version) Can we see it as (different) neurotype instead of a diagnosis/label/"you are broken" point of view?The label or problem is made up but i think we can't deny the human body mind had different types of form.The "i" can easily get lost in the story of i have Add so "i am broken".So on the other hand we can acknowledge the diversity and get real with it what can leads to freedom.No denial but also not claim it..and get lost in it. How you see it fit in this conversation of reality and true Self?

I'm hoping you can help me see something new around worry and preoccupation with my Grandchildren. I can see that the Parents are doing the best they can from what looks true for them, but from my perspective I can see how much of it is based on misunderstanding. And I see my Grandchildren soaking it up (as the learning sponges that they are) and I just want to jump in constantly and say no - don't believe it! For example, my Son and his Wife put my 12 year old Grand Daughter on anti-anxiety medication because they see her emotions as a problem. I feel helpless to stop any of it and I spend way too much time thinking about it. Can you help shed some light on this? 

Can you please do a podcast on What's at stake, I have been using that phrase and it really helps. When the need to ask that comes to mind it is usually at a time when the sensations are so constrictive and felt so deep. It has been helping me to not react at those times. It helps to have that realization that the only thing at stake is the thought of the identity. Why is it that the sensations are so dramatic at that time?