Superpowered Mind with Clare Dimond

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Happy New Year! I'm so delighted to be in your membership again for another year. You truly transformed my experience of life last year for which I'm most grateful.There appears to be immense confusion again here so I'm hoping you can address it in a podcast.I'm loving the life circles course so far and I have identified quite a few of these! No surprise!One that is particularly confusing for me is around my husband.After a call with my coach last week I realised that I have a huge fear of separation from my husband; of repeating the loss that happened to me as a child when my father left. You might think therefore that with this programme I'd do everything in my power to make sure he loved me or I would be controlling of what he does and where he goes. However what I notice is almost the opposite. I get annoyed with him being so lovely to me (?!?), find him 'too needy' and have regular thoughts of whether I'm with the 'right man' - despite loving being with him. All of this creates an internal separation - it's as if there is a subconscious programme to keep him at bay.I know from working with you to sit with the feelings and not try to escape them but nothing seems to shift. Perhaps that's because I'm so desperate to see something here!?I'd love to hear you talk to this...Thank you so much for your incredible work.

As metaphor I see the absolute (life, intelligence) as water flowing in a river. Condition learning as dams created on this river which slows down or even stops the flow of the water. But the nature of water is flowing and new fresh water is coming to the river all the time and staying at the dam's mouth not bypassing it can cause the dam to collapse bringing the river ecosystems back to balance.What's the new seeing/insight made of? Isn't also a thought made from new fresh flow of life intelligence?  

 I've scribbled pages so far, I'm not done, this is what I have, still a bit fuzzy, help me out or pull me back from the brink.  .... and thanks Clare.  All my problems have the same base; not good enough, not smart enough, lacking in some way or another.  All are formless - ideas and thoughts floating around in my head.   My bio-computer brain believes the story it's telling itself and looks out into this world of form to see what others do to be happy.  I give it a go.  Alcohol, drugs, sex, becoming successful, acquiring the right material goods, getting my body into the best shape, being unique, having an interesting story .... eventually it all fails.  I give up and just look forward to having enough money, health and maybe companionship until I depart this miserable world.  (fuzzy part) No matter how many times I throw myself down the stairs I’m always pulled upright and given a do-over.  In all spiritual studies I have been led to there is talk of separation of who we really are and what we believe we are. I’ve come to some awareness of this.  I realize the self I call ‘david’ is a story, created around experiences, influenced by others, given meaning, value, and believed to be real & true.  (very fuzzy part) Through  these exercises I’m seeing practical solutions to my problems in the world of form.  But how do I convince myself I’m just a story, I’m just awareness showing up in this body-form, there really isn’t any separation only a misunderstanding I forgot to laugh at.  

Since 2 years I came across the principes and since then I have read dozens of books and listened to so many podcasts. I dit different courses and nothing seems to bring me insights that change things for me. At the same time, I feel distracted while reading/listening and that brings comfort. But as soon as I close the book, I’m in my thinking again. And I find it hard that I’m not present to being in life with my family, and closing myself off trying to find relief in reading/listening. Reading about non-duality scares me. The idea that you can’t choose what you think and you have no control whatsoever frightens me, because why can’t I feel love, peacefulness and joy if that’s my nature? Why all these negative thoughts?I’m very aware of the ticker tape of negative thinking playing in my mind. I thought I’d share, because I feel stuck.- I I’ll never feel good again.- Nothings is wrong in my life, what if something happens with my husband/parents. I won’t be able to cope.- What will I do when I’m free tomorrow.- I wake up early and I don’t feel like eating, I’m in my flight or flight response, I can’t think myself out of it, but I can’t stop these thoughts.- Is it hormonal? Should I try hormonal patches?- Do I have to get a diagnosis for ADD? Would ADD meds help? (My son was diagnosed last year and I have always recognized myself in the symptoms).- I spend my days reading/listening about the principles in the hope I will see something different, but I don’t have a sense of a deeper feeling or awareness. I know I should have other interests, but I can’t stay away from it.- If I don’t feel better, how can I ever get a different job with more responsibilities. - What if it gets worse and I cannot cope?- I wish I had more friends.- All this taking in information may be the reason my head feels fussy, but what can I do to fill my days? I feel bored at work and at home, how can I find my joy? etc. It’s exhausting and I don’t know how to relate differently to all that thinking. I’ve started the Circles course and my anxiety is revving up, because you say so clearly that there’s no hope to ever feel better if you can’t see past the illusion of a separate self. But in all the reading I did, I can’t see it. I wonder if this is the right course or what else I can do. Any advice is appreciated.

I have so many people, family, friends, clients suddenly showing up projecting abandonment on to someone or something. I know this is "my" stuff. I'm doing the Ho Ho as they appear.  And I've been wanting to ask you for ages now and it seems the right time. How much work do I do for clients/ children "others"   is Ho Ho enough?  What is enough or When is it "done" ?  I sort of feel that this is a silly question but can you say something to this please?

I just got off our first zoom call of the program and it prompted a question.  You suggested going into the areas that seem most risky to the self.  I do this all the time.  It results in continued panic and panic attacks.  I feel like I'm being re-traumatized over and over and it's been going on for years.  My brain seems chrystialized in this pattern. Is it possible for something new to be seen and have this fall away?  Or maybe it will happen and that's no big deal.  I feel like going into the risky area of my life is not even a choice, it's as if I have a gun to my head.  I don't even know where to begin to try to heal this through the body.  Resisting is happening and I can't control that.  Thanks Clare,   I loved seeing your beautiful face today and listening to your words.

I HAVE had one thing that so far has NOT made sense to me. Perhaps you want to share in a podcast about it, or share in another way.It sounds to me like you say that NO healing happens until we stay with something, NO healing happens if we distract.That’s not been my experience, though it is clearly my experience that much healing has not happened for that reason. But I don’t see it 100%. I spent an entire winter watching marvel movies and experienced tremendous healing. It was the best thing I could have done (in the absence of Clare!)I have had profound shifts just in the joy of living, in dance, in walks in the woods, in distraction, full presence with a client, or with a bite of delicious food!And my understanding of the brain is that healing and shifts in one area extends to other areas that aren’t being used, and that the resistance of habitual neural pathways starts to return when left alone. I read an amazing book, somewhat separate look at it, at how people who can’t hear, come to actually hear through touch, etc. The system is brilliant and has work-arounds that infiltrate the lapses.Which is not to negate at all that’s happening here.  This has been earth shattering in its truth for me.But the idea that something can’t heal without direct attention… To me, the only reasons this perhaps subtle discrepancy seems relevant, is 1) because the silence of the mind, the peace that Syd pointed to (from whatever crutch we may use - a walk in the woods etc) has been tremendously healing for me, and 2) because 100% dependence on our attention flies in the face of my reverence for the miraculous unfolding of life.Perhaps this is semantics. But it has been popping up for me! That said, it has been 100% clear to me that running away from experience has also been happening, and I feel graced beyond measure that that is happening less and less thanks to what you are sharing with us!

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