Becoming Me

Episode 98           How do we begin to develop secure attachment with God and others in adulthood when we have struggled so long with insecurity about our loveableness?In this episode I break this question down from the perspective of interior integration and share some practical steps you can take.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:17) - Introduction(00:08:25) - What is Secure Attachment?(00:10:53) - Why we have Trust Issues(00:16:31) - Three Relationships(00:18:28) - Attune To(00:24:40) - Trauma Aware(00:25:39) - Feeling Safe(00:29:00) - Secure Attachement with God(00:36:56) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTRead up more on secure attachment and trauma awareness. Are you aware of your attachment style? Do you recognise the wounds and trauma within yourself that need healing? Consider how you are feeling now. Think about a resource such a counsellor or spiritual director, that may help you in the current season you are in.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 97           How can you maintain inner freedom and equilibrium when other people project their issues onto you?In this episode I explain the first principles behind a process that allows us to become more anchored in our True Identity which will allow us to respond to other people’s projections onto us with greater authenticity and integrity.I teach this process in the context of leadership in my online course A Leader’s Spirituality (ALS): https://www.integroformation.com/als This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:23) - Introduction(00:04:52) - We See Life through a Tinted Glass(00:05:30) - Beholding the Real(00:12:40) - Layers of Prayer(00:14:13) - Re-Grounding(00:17:28) - Rooted in my Core(00:19:06) - Creating Space and Boundaries(00:28:15) - First Principles and Context(00:33:25) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experience someone projecting their feelings if insecurity on you? Have you been triggered by this? Think of one instance where this has happened. Were you triggered? Why were you triggered? The next time this comes up, try to make space for yourself, to re-ground yourself.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 96            “How do I pace myself on the interior journey when the speed of what comes up (mostly past experiences, childhood memories) is faster than what I can process or unpack?”In this episode I offer THREE clear and very practical steps of what to do when the interior journey becomes overwhelming.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:00) - Introduction(00:03:14) - You Feel Safer(00:04:04) - 3 Tips(00:04:24) - 1. Breathe(00:06:20) - 2. Re-Evaluate(00:09:06) - 3. Create more Space for Solitude(00:11:46) - Don't Rush(00:12:40) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTThink about the three steps or tips that I mentioned in this episode. If you are feeling overwhelmed right now, in this journey, take a step back and breathe. Give yourself some space. Name one think you can subtract from your life to give you this space.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 95           In my season of deep healing I was led to rediscover how to receive delight, rest, pleasure, rest and be extravagant with beauty without guilt.I never knew until that season how “holiness” and “goodness” and my image of God had been distorted in my life through trauma to be narrow, pedantic, dogmatic and puritanical.Hear how I experienced embodied spiritual healing through contemplative photography, gourmet coffee and becoming a pet parent to my dog Miko!This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:28) - Introduction(00:02:56) - Embodiment(00:09:43) - Photography(00:19:06) - Coffee(00:20:39) - The Shame in my Delight(00:25:47) - Miko Story(00:45:49) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTIn this episode, I share about three things that helped me in my healing journey. I invite you to watch my Youtube video of this episode, which has a lot of pictures and visuals. I also invite you to think about something you and your inner child would like to do to play and to just delight in.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 94          At some point of the interior journey we will feel disconnected with the outside world and this can be scary if we don’t understand why it’s happening or how to respond.In this episode I explain why this sense of disconnection happens at specific seasons of the interior journey and what practical action we can take to nurture and protect our emerging interior life.This episode will be particularly helpful for those of you who need more than the usual advice about prayer as you enter deeper waters of the interior life.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:00) - Introduction(00:04:37) - Stages of the Interior Journey(00:07:27) - Why do we experience disconnection?(00:08:17) - 1. Fragmentation & Realignment(00:11:48) - 2. Unlearning & Changing(00:20:25) - Carving Out Silence & Solitude(00:38:13) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced this sense of disconnect between your inner and outer lives before? How have you responded to nurture and protect your interior journey?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 93          Loneliness is a universal experience, regardless of whether you are single or married (or in religious life/ordained)!What’s at the root of our loneliness? How do we build a foundation towards having secure attachment with others and with God?Tune in to this episode to hear me talk about how no-one, not even God, can replace a secure relationship with our SELF.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:33) - Introduction(00:02:04) - Question1: Singlehood and Contentment(00:03:23) - Question 2: MyExperience with Earned Security(00:05:27) - Safe Companionship(00:10:37) - Loneliness(00:15:21) - Relationships can't Fix our Woundedness and Traumas(00:22:07) - Secure Attachment(00:27:32) - My Experience with Secure and Safe Attachment(00:30:17) - Building on our own Relationship with God First(00:33:02) - Being in Solitue to Enjoy Togetherness(00:34:09) - Self-Alienation(00:46:09) - Balancing the Tension(00:54:43) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHave you experienced loneliness recently? If you are unsure, think about some signs which point towards feelings of loneliness? In that moment, were you able to attune to yourself? What is one way in which you can be more secure with yourself?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 92          In order to love authentically, we need to have a healthy sense of who we are as a separate SELF.In this episode I talk about why being enmeshed or too detached in our relationships both prevent us from becoming more fully alive and authentically loving.I also address a question about the particular challenge of being an Asian/Chinese Catholic making this interior journey of integration.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:24) - Introduction(00:02:52) - Getting into the Specifics(00:04:10) - What is the Interior Journey About?(00:05:54) - Spiritually Fruitful(00:08:01) - Enmeshment & Detachment(00:11:52) - Lacking Intimacy(00:13:58) - Differentiation(00:18:22) - Dysfunctions(00:25:03) - Making our own Journey(00:26:54) - There is no Community without Solitude(00:33:39) - The Other and The Self(00:35:11) - Questions(00:42:11) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhere on the spectrum do you lie? Do you lie closer to enmeshment or detachment? Think about some of the ways in which you have experienced enmeshment or detachment in your close relationships. Think of one way in which you can start your journey to stop these patterns. It doesn't have to be something big. Any step in the right direction is progress.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 91          There’s a world of difference between shutting down our emotions and ignoring our needs to “do the right thing” and being genuinely, authentically loving with our whole being.In this episode I explain this distinction and share with very concrete experience how differently these two frameworks operate and how only one of them sets us free to become more alive and more truly loving.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:25) - Introduction(00:02:05) - What's the Difference?(00:07:57) - The Framework we Operate under(00:09:44) - Loving Freely(00:12:55) - Looking at Freedom in the Act Versus the Act Itself(00:16:49) - Shifting the Paradigm(00:18:58) - Familial Scripts(00:30:21) - Being Authentically Loving(00:41:20) - How do I Honour this "Paradox" in me?(00:43:24) - Question #1(00:45:15) - Question #2(00:55:35) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTThink about a recent episode in which you felt pushed or triggered. What was your response? Was your response one that was reactive towards your fears and anxieties? Or did you give yourself the space to understand your emotions? Perhaps you acted out of your default scripts, thinking it was the right thing to do. Sit with this memory and try and recognise if there were any scripts at play.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 90        Did you know your lack of a good relationship with your own BODY prevents you from being able to TRUST God, your Self or others?When we try to discipline our body without first having a loving relationship with it, we deepen the emotional fracture within our being.In this episode I share how God led me to reconsider my relationship with my body and learn to be able to trust Him more fully.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:33) - Introduction(00:03:18) - Spirituality is Relationship with God(00:05:13) - The Relationship with our Bodies(00:10:00) - Attuning to the Needs of your Body: What Works for You(00:15:24) - The Irony of the Body(00:19:08) - The Body Never Lies(00:23:35) - Honouring our Design(00:27:10) - Building a Relationship with our Bodies(00:36:58) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhat is your relationship with our body like? Do you trust your body? Do you like your body? Perhaps you see it as a liability and have constantly tried to push past its 'weaknesses'. What about your body do dislike? Take some time to sit with yourself. Hold yourself gently.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 89      What’s the difference between controlling our emotions and regulating them? We often try to control our emotions in order to “be loving” but by doing so we actually make it harder for us to make authentic connections.In this episode I share my experience on the difference between controlling my emotions and learning to regulate by attuning to them and the impact this has on my ability to be a safer space for myself and others.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube. Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:17) - Introduction(00:02:43) - Big (Negative) Emotions(00:08:40) - Allowing ourselves to Feel(00:11:14) - Attuning to our Emotions(00:19:11) - Our Younger Emotions(00:26:20) - The Core Self(00:29:36) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTThink about a time where you felt upset, sad or angry. Did you try to control your emotions? Were you able to let yourself feel those emotions? Try and come up with one way in which you can better attune to yourself and your emotions.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.