Becoming Me

Episode 108   In this episode, I delve into how understanding complex trauma has helped me in my spiritual life. I share how certain challenges I face, such as emotional regulation in stressful environments, couldn't be solved merely through deepening my spiritual life and prayer routine. By learning more about trauma, I discovered how coping mechanisms and defense mechanisms have shaped my personality and reactions. I share how learning about trauma has led me to see myself more wholly and helped me to be more compassionately curious and courageous in my interior integration journey.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:03:24 ) - New Season Updates(00:14:47) - Introduction(00:16:05) - The Connection Between Spiritual Journey and Trauma(00:18:54) - The Struggle With Spiritual Growth(00:20:37) - The Revelation Of A Shaky Foundation(00:23:56) - Understanding Complex Trauma(00:27:26) - The Impact of Trauma On The Nervous System(00:28:30) - The Integration of Body, Mind and Spirit(00:29:51) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTWhat emotional response do you have to this episode? Are you open to exploring how trauma affects your own spiritual journey?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 107   Do you feel overwhelmed in Advent and more tense than usual? Does that make you feel guilty all the more because it makes you feel like you're not "doing" Advent well?In this bonus episode, I share my personal experiences about the overwhelming feelings often associated with the Advent season, particularly for those on a trauma recovery journey. I talk about my struggles with complex trauma and how my wounds show up specifically during the Christian Advent season. This episode highlights the difficult balance between religious traditions, family scripts, and self-care. I emphasise the importance of pace, space, and grace especially if we are in a season of healing and share personal strategies for managing anxiety during this Advent season.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:21) - Introduction(00:02:13) - The Impact of Trauma on Advent Experience(00:03:58) - Recognizing Overwhelm and Trauma Responses(00:06:08) - The Role of Family and Faith Traditions(00:07:48) - The Challenge of Trauma Recovery During Advent(00:10:50) - The Importance of Agency and Choice in Trauma Recovery(00:13:12) - Managing Overwhelm: Pace, Space and Grace(00:21:27) - Personal Experiences and Reflections(00:32:24) - Final Thoughts(00:33:09) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTDo you recognise any signs of overwhelm in your body during this Advent season? What scripts (societal / familial / religious) may be activated for you during this lead up to Christmas? Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 106     Have you ever felt that gut-wrenching feeling that something just isn't right in your life, but couldn't quite pinpoint the cause? That sense of dissonance might actually be the key to unlocking a more authentic and fulfilling life. In this heartfelt conversation, I examine the importance of authenticity and attunement, and how these two conflicting needs can cause us to lose touch with our inner compass. I share my own struggles with finding and maintaining integrity, and discuss how the discomfort of dissonance can be seen as a blessing rather than a burden. By recognizing and acknowledging this feeling in our lives, we can use it as an invitation to move towards greater self-awareness and self-love.This episode will leave you with a newfound appreciation for the value of dissonance in your life and the journey towards authenticity.Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:06:08) Introduction(00:06:45) What is Dissonance?(00:11:47) Filling the Emptiness(00:15:14) Authenticity & Attachment Needs(00:17:00) Dissonance is a Blessing(00:18:34) My Experiences of Dissonance(00:30:10) Moving Towards Authenticity and Integrity(00:34:56) Are you Experiencing Dissonance?(00:36:37) ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTAre you currently experiencing dissonance in your life? Sit with it, bring it to God. What is one way you can live more authentically?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 105           “What’s an interior integration coach and why are you one?”I often get asked how what I do is different from spiritual direction, counselling/therapy and life coaching.In this last episode from the 30 day challenge series I explain what interior integration specifically addresses and how the kind of coaching I do draws upon, differs from, complements and integrates other approaches to inner work.You may wish to check out A Leader’s Spirituality, an online course I teach that provides an experiential introduction to interior integration, and Clarity: Interior Integration Journey, an 8-month long small group coaching journey that facilitates pilgrims into clearer self-knowledge and deeper acceptance.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:44) - Introduction(00:03:33) - Interior Integration(00:11:47) - Why I Do What I Do(00:27:22) - Integration Coach VS Counselling & Spiritual Direction(00:32:10) - Making Sense of the Data(00:33:25) - Praxis (00:38:48) - Stringing the Clues Together(00:49:58) - Sharing my Story(01:11:06) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHas anything from today's Live resonated with you? Do you feel like you are tapping on the right resources for yourself, at this particular point in your journey? Remeber that each journey is unique and each call and mission is unrepeatable. Sit with this. Ponder this.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 104           Why is it that even when we KNOW what we need to do and when we even try to do “the right things” so few of us truly thrive and flourish?In this episode I share how getting things done (even when they are good things) without attunement to ourselves, to God and others will lead to us showing up more and more as “empty shells” and using one another as objects instead of loving one another into flourishing.I also talk about why slowing down, cherishing stillness, and taking care of ourselves are all essential for our thriving and for us to bring others into flourishing as well.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:20) - Introduction(00:02:14) - Attunement for Interior Integration(00:06:31) - Truth without Attunement(00:14:51) - Flourishing(00:19:27) - Presence and Attunement(00:24:20) - Spiritual Fruit(00:26:13) - Slowing Down(00:28:18) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHow well do you think you are attuned to yourself on a scale of 1 to 10? Do you have this same level of attunement with God and with those around you? Have you ever felt unseen or unheard? Perhaps you were were unable to attune or be present to someone in your life. Ponder this, write it down when you're ready.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 103           There is a secret shame and hidden pain for those of us whose community (family/church) value marriage and children when our marriage situation does not match that “ideal”.In this episode I responded to someone who asked how she could be authentic to herself, God and others in her struggle to make sense of her infertility. How can she still believe in the goodness of God and his love for her?I share my own journey in this area - a story I have only shared privately thus far because of my own fear of judgment in the past. But I am grateful now to be able to share my story of being married and childless as an offering. May this story find you if you needed to hear it.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:27) - Introduction(00:05:45) - Fertility and Childlessness(00:08:02) - Shame(00:16:47) - My Retreat Experience(00:26:28) - Freedom to Accept the Answer(00:31:54) - Ready in Acceptance(00:37:11) - Childlessness and our Interior Journey(00:41:29) - Authenticity(00:48:21) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTAre you struggling with your life or family state? Do you perhaps know someone who is struggling? If we are not struggling, have we been gentle and kind to those around us, who may be struggling?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 102           "What real life difference does interior healing make in our day to day living?""What difference does healing make to the way we see, approach and experience the interior journey?""What does one need to do to begin healing?""And how does the soul feel when we move from a season of healing/deepening to a season of equipping and then sending?"The interior journey happens deep below the surface of what we do in our daily life but our interior state - how integrated or fragmented we are - has a huge impact on our emotional resilience, interior freedom and integrity. In this latest episode of my podcast I answer some listener questions about how making the interior journey of integration has impacted my life.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:31) - Introduction(00:02:08) - How has Healing Changed Me and My Interior Journey?(00:04:45) - More Authentic(00:08:35) - More Safe(00:09:47) - Hope(00:13:02) - Understanding the Multi-Dimensional Aspects of the Interior Journey(00:16:03) - More Patience in my Journey(00:18:35) - How to Start Healing(00:19:10) - Awareness(00:20:31) - Support(00:27:54) - Seasons of the Interior Journey(00:29:38) - Silence and Solitude(00:35:54) - Sending and Deepening(00:45:04) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTAfter listening to my sharing on how inner healing has changed me and my interior journey, which part of my sharing resonates with you? Which season of the interior journey do you think you are in? What steps can you take to deepen your healing on this journey?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 101           "Does burnout and imposter syndrome always mean we are not doing what we are meant to do?""If our wounds impact how we respond to others, how and when does sin come in?""Can trying to practice boundaries make us sin? Is feeling guilty be an indication that we are doing something wrong?"In this episode I respond to these questions from the perspective of interior integration.This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:14) - Introduction(00:02:18) - Inner Healing(00:10:31) - The Call(00:20:00) - Imposter Syndrome(00:22:08) - Sin and Self-Agency(00:37:54) - Focusing on the Light(00:45:10) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTDo you find yourself feeling like an imposter? Perhaps you feel like your focus is solely on sin? Think about which part of my sharing today has had an impact and resonated with you. What is one thing you can do to move forward in this journey of integration and authenticity?Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 100           So many of us wish to know our gifts and our mission or vocation, but few know that without healing and integration we won’t be able to truly discern or live out our giftings or vocation.In this episode I explain WHY it is that trying to discern our gifts or mission without going through healing is often ineffective, resulting in us remaining trapped in not knowing who our True Self is.If you’re actively discerning a vocation or trying to deepen your self-knowledge, listen to this episode!This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:00) - Special Message From Ann(00:05:43) - Introduction(00:07:57) - Trauma & Personality Tests(00:13:22) - An MBTI (Myers Briggs) Example(00:20:36) - Traume & Vocation Discernment(00:25:52) - Does Personality Change With Age?(00:31:46) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPT- Are you trying to discern your life's mission and purpose before you know and love who God created you to be? Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.

Episode 99           I used to appear confident and successful externally but felt so anxious inside. I was a high achiever who felt like an imposter and who feared losing the regard that others had of me because of my achievements.In this episode I share the real experience of my journey into being able to confidently choose to be aligned with who I am and the gifts I know I have been given by saying “NO”, even at the risk of upsetting others I admired.If you’re a recovering people-pleaser you’ll understand just what a breakthrough and feat it is to become free to dis-please others. This is a message of encouragement for you! This episode is part of a series taken from my 30 Day Instagram Live Challenge where I went on live video to speak about different aspects of the interior journey every day for 30 days straight. Watch this recording on YouTube.Follow me on my Instagram account @animann for more material on the integration journey and subscribe to my monthly reflections on Begin Again.CHAPTER MARKERS(00:00:27) - Introduction(00:04:11) - My Old Scripts(00:05:41) - Example of my Old Scripts & Reactions(00:12:19) - Breaking out of Old Scripts and Habits(00:23:44) - Acceptance and Celebration(00:26:45) - ConclusionTRANSCRIPTAvailable here.REFLECTION PROMPTHas anything in my sharing resonated with you? How can you start living out in who you truly are? Think about one way you can start being more yourself, more authentic.Support the showSUBSCRIBE | FOLLOW | SUPPORTSocial Media:Follow Ann Yeong on Instagram or Facebook.Newsletter:Subscribe to Begin Again for Ann's updates and reflections.Support the Show:Monthly Support (starting at USD$3)One-time DonationLeave a Review:If this podcast has blessed you, please leave a review by clicking here.