

Cults to Consciousness
Shelise Ann Sola
Survivor stories of claiming independence after leaving high-control groups & people. Cults to Consciousness is a YouTube channel and podcast, hosted by Shelise Ann Sola (a former devout Mormon & CSA survivor) and her Producer husband, Jonathan Rosales. C2C delves into the nuanced experiences of individuals who have escaped a broad spectrum of high-control groups and coercive environments. They are not anti-religious but firmly anti-abuse, aiming to shed light on manipulative practices and systems, while promoting compassion, understanding, and accountability. C2C has attracted a kind and engaged community who thoughtfully support their guests. Follow to join them on their advocacy mission.
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May 27, 2025 • 1h 8min
Ballerina Farm Controversy: Former LDS Trad Wife Weighs In (ft. Jennie Gage)
Hannah Neeleman, LDS trad wife and mom-fluencer for over 9 million collective followers is under high scrutiny from the world after an article in The Times, pulled back the veil from her seemingly perfect life. Journalist Megan Agnew wrote about her sneaking suspicion of secret oppression going on behind the scenes due to her impression of Hannah’s heavily lurking husband. Is Hannah, the pageant-winning, butter-churning, picture perfect mother of eight actually happy to have blown up her ballerina career at Juilliard for this exhausting lifestyle? Joined live today, former LDS trad wife and content creator. Jennie Gage, weighs in on her opinion of the matter.
Click here to watch on YouTube
Find Jennie on social media:
TikTok: @lifetaketwo
IG: @lifetaketwojennie
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Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.
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Venmo @sheliseann
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Instagram @cultstoconsciousness
Host Instagram @sheliseann
Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_
TikTok @cults.to.consciousness
Twitter @cultstocon
**Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

May 27, 2025 • 54min
More Disturbing Mormon Propaganda Surfaces (Ex Mormons React) ft. Alyssa Grenfell
Click here to listen to Part 1 on YouTube
An old official LDS church document has just surfaced on Reddit about the “dangers” of masturb*tion and we are here to cover it with @alyssaadgrenfell. Also on the docket are other harmful talks about the normative practice. Make sure you go to Alyssa’s channel to watch part 1 before we redirect to our channel to continue the conversation!
Click here to watch this episode on YouTube
Find Alyssa on social media:
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@alyssadgrenfell
TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@alyssadgrenfell
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/alyssadgrenfell/
Blog: https://www.mormontruths.com
Email: alyssadgrenfell@gmail.com
We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page
Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!
Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.
Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!
Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness
Venmo @sheliseann
Find us on Social media!
Instagram @cultstoconsciousness
Host Instagram @sheliseann
Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_
TikTok @cults.to.consciousness
Twitter @cultstocon
**Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**
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May 27, 2025 • 1h 47min
Why I Regret My Mormon Mission ft. Alyssa Grenfell
Ex Mormon YouTuber Alyssa Grenfell, opens up about her experience going to the Mormon University Brigham Young University and on her service mission for the LDS church. Here is why she ultimately regrets spending a year and a half trying to convert people to the faith.
Click here to watch on YouTube
Catch Shelise on Alyssa’s channel where they discuss soaking and other loopholes
Find Alyssa on social media:
YouTube: @alyssadgrenfell
TikTok: / alyssadgrenfell
Instagram: / alyssadgrenfell
Blog: https://www.mormontruths.com
Email: alyssadgrenfell@gmail.com
We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page
Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!
Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.
Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!
Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness
Venmo @sheliseann
Find us on Social media!
Instagram @cultstoconsciousness
Host Instagram @sheliseann
Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_
TikTok @cults.to.consciousness
Twitter @cultstocon
**Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**
00:00:00 Intro
00:05:41 How Mormonism impacted Alyssa's childhood and her personal relationships and led her to BYU
00:10:44 BYU as a symbol of Mormon culture and a goal for those outside of Utah
00:15:58 Rules at BYU that prevent students from taking tests and forming connections with other students
00:22:24 Threats of degree revocation as a control tactic to keep students within the honor code boundaries
00:25:57 The impact of BYU surveillance and the honor code on victims
00:28:10 Alyssa begins to experience dissonance with her faith and personal beliefs at BYU
00:33:58 How missionaries are viewed in Mormon culture and how it coerces LDS members to serve
00:42:03 Alyssa's personal revelation from God... that contradicts the church
00:48:10 Alyssa's first experience in the temple and how it impacted her mission
00:58:14 The implications of going through the temple and then cancelling your mission
00:59:54 The isolation of a Mormon mission
01:07:51 How the church promotes religious OCD to its missionaries
01:10:22 How Alyssa's mission affected her mental health in the field and when she came home
01:15:16 Living with a hoarder as a missionary and how the church deemed those to be adequate conditions
01:19:51 What the consequences were to raising concerns about improper housing
01:26:04 How the goal of worthiness keeps missionaries in line and in potentially harmful environments
01:28:44 Baptism quotas, avoiding certain questions and omitting the truth while trying to convert
01:32:33 When numbers get in the way of actually helping those in need
01:35:36 Why Alyssa regrets her mission
01:39:19 What to do when you meet a Mormon missionary
01:43:49 Linda, listen
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May 26, 2025 • 1h 28min
Tortured for 8 Years by Sadistic “Shawano Wisconsin Cult” Leader
Born into this hyper-strict cult in Wisconsin, Martha Glory Stecker Kartaoui was told she was one of the chosen people. Intense modesty rules and odd dietary restrictions were nothing compared to what she endured every weekend at the compound with her family. Groomed by the leader himself, Martha was chosen to move to the compound where she would be psychologically, emotionally, spiritually and physically tortured for 8 years until she could escape his tight grasp.
Now, Martha is a certified life/health coach, spiritual mentor specializing in trauma. She’s an Amazon Best Selling International Author, a dynamic speaker, and a skilled healing facilitator. As a cult survivor, she finds purpose and passion in leading healing retreats/workshops for others who have survived Cults or other high-controlled groups and their communities. Because she knows intimately the challenges of reclaiming one's identity outside the constraints of the cult culture, she’s dedicated to assisting individuals seeking to reclaim their lives in order to thrive in their own journey towards self-discovery and divine fulfillment.
Martha is building a platform (Cult-X) for those interested in connecting in a safe space to share experiences and find healing. Cult-X is a hub for resources, community, workshop/retreat opportunities, and group sharing. For more information, email Martha at martha@cult-x.org
Click here to watch on YouTube
Find Martha on Social media…
IG: @marthakartaoui
Facebook: Martha Kartaoui
LinkedIn: http://www.linkedin.com/in/martha-kartaoui-a7840b291
Website: https://cult-x.org
Book: Glory: Going All In
We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page
Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!
Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.
Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!
Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness
Venmo @sheliseann
Find us on Social media!
Instagram @cultstoconsciousness
Host Instagram @sheliseann
Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_
TikTok @cults.to.consciousness
Twitter @cultstocon
**Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

May 23, 2025 • 42min
Warren Jeffs’ Texas Raid: An Insider Look into the Fundamentalist Mormon Ranch Take Down
Join us with the amazing husband and wife team, Sam and Melissa from @GrowingUpinPolygamy as they break down their latest exclusive interview with the son of the notorious Polygamist Fundamentalist Mormon (FLDS) leader, Warren Jeffs. Ammon Jeffs shared with them an unprecedented glimpse into life at YFZ Ranch, shedding light on the realities of being raised by the infamous polygamous prophet, the untold stories, challenges, the traumatic Texas Raid, and the insights from someone who lived through it all.
Click here to watch on YouTube
Watch their full interview with Ammon Jeffs on their channel here
YouTube: @growingupinpolygamy
Website: https://www.growingupinpolygamy.com/
Instagram: @growing_up_in_polygamy
Email: growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com
Resources for leaving Polygamy & volunteer opportunities
If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org
Holding Out Help: https://holdingouthelp.org/
Short Creek Dream Center: https://www.shortcreekdreamcenter.org/
We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page
Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!
Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.
Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!
Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness
Venmo @sheliseann
Find us on Social media!
Instagram @cultstoconsciousness
Host Instagram @sheliseann
Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_
TikTok @cults.to.consciousness
Twitter @cultstocon
**Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**
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May 23, 2025 • 44min
Ex-FLDS Cult Member Explains Miracles Experienced (ft. Growing Up in Polygamy)
People often ask how anyone can believe in a Prophet who's currently in prison. We will hear from ex-FLDS (Fundamentalist Mormon) member, Sam, from @GrowingUpinPolygamy , what his spiritual experiences were like inside the cult. His wife, Melissa, will join us to add her opinions on her spiritual experiences in mainstream Mormonism.
Click here to watch on YouTube
Make sure to catch the live with us on their channel immediately after
C2C interviews GUIP:
https://youtu.be/9-1ds4x1eXk?si=SnmoN31Y_ScQ5na8
Watch the episode we did on their channel here:
https://youtu.be/zXQUeXwkMRk
YouTube: @growingupinpolygamy
Website: https://www.growingupinpolygamy.com/
Instagram: @growing_up_in_polygamy
Email: growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com
Resources for leaving Polygamy & volunteer opportunities
If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org
Holding Out Help: https://holdingouthelp.org/
Short Creek Dream Center: https://www.shortcreekdreamcenter.org/
We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page
Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!
Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.
Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!
Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness
Venmo @sheliseann
Find us on Social media!
Instagram @cultstoconsciousness
Host Instagram @sheliseann
Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_
TikTok @cults.to.consciousness
Twitter @cultstocon
**Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**
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May 22, 2025 • 58min
Blood Atonement: Ervil LeBaron's Daughters Set the Record Straight
The new cult documentary "Daughters of the Cult" explores the LeBaron family, as it relates to killings in the name of God, also known as Blood Atonement. Sisters, Anna and Celia LeBaron, join us to discuss details that were left out of the documentary.
Click here to watch on YouTube
We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page
Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!
Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.
Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!
Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness
Venmo @sheliseann
Find us on Social media!
Instagram @cultstoconsciousness
Host Instagram @sheliseann
Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_
TikTok @cults.to.consciousness
Twitter @cultstocon
**Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**
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May 22, 2025 • 41min
What Happens to FLDS Polygamist Children?
Led by the currently incarcerated prophet Warren Jeffs, the Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints have strict rules and one major part of their doctrine is the practice of polygamy. The women who are often assigned and married off at a young age, are forced to bear as many children as possible. Warren took it upon himself to separate mothers and fathers from their children at astonishing rates. We will discuss with Ceci Hendrickson (a former polygamist wife and mother) all of the ways they suffered in the FLDS.
Click here to watch on YouTube
Watch her full interview here
Find Ceci on Social!
IG: @Ceci.Hendrickson
Clothing Line: https://pinkvalor.com/
IG @pinkvalor
We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page
Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!
Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.
Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!
Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness
Venmo @sheliseann
Find us on Social media!
Instagram @cultstoconsciousness
Host Instagram @sheliseann
Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_
TikTok @cults.to.consciousness
Twitter @cultstocon
**Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**
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May 21, 2025 • 43min
The Damaging Effects of the SISTER WIVES TV Show ft. Amanda Rae Grant
Amanda Rae who grew up in a Fundamentalist Polygamist Mormon sect, shares her thoughts on the damaging effects of polygamy being glorified on TV. Shelise's mom, Lisa, an avid watcher, also joins us to chime in with her thoughts.
Click here to watch on YouTube
Click here to watch the live we did on Amanda’s channel immediately after!
Find Amanda:
YouTube: @TheAmandaRaeGrant
IG: @amandaraegrant
If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org
We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page
Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!
Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.
Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!
Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness
Venmo @sheliseann
Find us on Social media!
Instagram @cultstoconsciousness
Host Instagram @sheliseann
Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_
TikTok @cults.to.consciousness
Twitter @cultstocon
**Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**
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May 21, 2025 • 56min
Amanda Rae Grant Reveals SECRETS of "Escaping Polygamy" TV Show
Joined today in studio with Amanda Rae ( @TheAmandaRaeGrant ) we discuss never talked about behind-the-scenes secrets about her time on the TV show "Escaping Polygamy."
Click here to watch on YouTube
Click here to watch the live we're doing on Amanda’s channel immediately after!
Find Amanda:
YouTube: @TheAmandaRaeGrant
IG: @amandaraegrant
If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org
We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page
Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!
Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.
Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!
Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness
Venmo @sheliseann
Find us on Social media!
Instagram @cultstoconsciousness
Host Instagram @sheliseann
Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_
TikTok @cults.to.consciousness
Twitter @cultstocon
**Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.


