Groomed to Practice Polygamy in Incestuous Cult as a Gay Man

Nov 1, 2024

Nephi Robinson, a former member of The Order, shares his profound journey from a polygamous upbringing to embracing his identity as a gay man. He reveals the pressures he faced from his father, who had 14 wives, and how he was assigned a wife at a young age, leading to the birth of seven children. Nephi recounts the absurd reasoning behind being told he was gay and ultimately his courage to come out. His candid reflections on family dynamics in the cult, the challenges of navigating love and identity, and the quest for self-acceptance make for a captivating discussion.

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Intro

00:00 • 2min

Navigating Family Dynamics in Polygamy

01:42 • 18min

Navigating Love and Identity in a Polygamous Culture

19:51 • 14min

Navigating Constraints: Education and Relationships in a Polygamous Community

34:04 • 11min

Navigating Polygamous Expectations

44:50 • 8min

Desperate Measures: The Tragic Health Regimen in Isolation

52:42 • 4min

Exploring Controversial Clinic Practices and Fertility Treatments

56:36 • 2min

Breaking Free from Control

58:10 • 17min

Navigating Life After Isolation

01:15:12 • 7min

Understanding Ostracism and Trust in Cult Dynamics

01:22:00 • 2min

One of the most sacred tenants of The Order, a fundamentalist polygamous break of sect of the mainstream mormon/LDS church, is living polygamy. Nephi knew he was gay, but hid it most of his life because living authentically was never an option for him. He was essentially assigned a wife at a young age and had 7 children before he realized he couldn’t pretend anymore. His father, who had 14 wives and over 160 children was pushing him to take another wife, so he came out to him. Nephi was told he was gay for various reasons such as eating too much chicken and he needed to stay faithful lest he go to the depths of Hell. Thankfully, he didn’t listen, got out and isn’t hiding his true self any longer.

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Chapter Markers: 00:00:00 Intro 00:02:13 Nephi's polygamous family dynamic 00:03:59 Oldest of 13 kids in immediate family- parentification at 8-10 yrs old 00:05:40 Women are responsible for the chiIdren and income 00:08:42 ChiId labor in The Order 00:11:22 What Nephi's dad Daniel was like 00:15:03 Pre-destined families 00:20:28 Dance cards for betrothals at 16 yrs old 00:26:30 Allowed genres and dance styles for the dances 00:28:08 Being gay was not an option 00:29:55 TW: suic*de ideation 00:32:28 The struggles of being gay with no support 00:34:07 Daniel chose Nephi's college major 00:38:35 The courting process of The Order- no dating till engaged 00:41:53 Nephi's engagement 00:43:28 Plural wives get to make up their last name 00:45:09 Getting married & being pressured to take another wife 00:52:07 Nephi's mom's medical negligence 00:58:19 How Daniel reacted when Nephi came out to him 01:06:45 Nephi's family's reaction to him coming out and leaving 01:09:22 Conversion therapy? 01:15:21 When Nephi left to start a new life, what was it like? 01:18:35 How Nephi is doing now 01:20:28 Linda, Listen Theme Song Produced and Composed by Christian Guevara **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**

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