Superpowered Mind with Clare Dimond

Listener question: why do I do 'x' when I know I should do 'y'? 

Listener question: It seems like when a mind created story comes up, it‘s more convincing than ever, like how dangerous it will be to go on stage. Also some physical symtpoms are very strong.Somehow I can observe how the story comes up, but then when I‘m in it, I‘m so much in it that I can‘t really see it as a story anymore. I‘m very scared that I will get stuck in the story and won‘t be able to observe whats happening anymore..I don‘t know if I‘m making sense.. I think my „self“ is trying to cry for help, knowing that it‘s under threat..What am I missing here?

Listener question: What exactly is 'honesty' ?. I realised that if i met an old friend i could be 'honest' and say "i am a failure, i dont have children, i'm not married, I'm still dependant with no reliable income, I have 'gone nowhere, the world has moved on and i am the same as i was when we last met". Compared to all the 'movement' in her life i would feel like a loser. This would feel like my 'honest truth'. I would be sharing how i 'honestly' feel and see myself right now. HOWEVER, i can also see that all i'd be doing is sharing the 'thoughts i'm believing to be true in that moment through the filters on how i am seeing my life'. I would feel i was being totally honest because those thoughts feel REAL.The other option is i could 'act' and tell her all the things i have done that were successful and paint a better picture. These facts would also be 'true' but because i don't feel 'successful'and it isnt what i'm seeing right now i'd feel as if i was being 'dishonest' and 'fake'. This feels even further from authentic.I can see that both examples are 'true' and both examples are 'fake' I can see that all life events are neutral and so what we're really sharing are our self judgements and the meaning we have given those events, and what we are risking are the hidden judgements of others.So WHAT does real 'honesty' look like if the thoughts that inform what we feel to be 'our truth in the moment' are actually only ever telling us 'lies' ?. Is sharing how we feel ever 'honesty' if our feelings are always only coming from our unreliable thoughts ? 

Listener question: What I'm seeing with my expression and lack of, is a deep distrust of life i.e. that the expression I long to be truly isn't possible and it's best not to be proved right on that.Choosing actions that allow full expression rather than keep a pretence that it's still at a distance and not yet available is what I want.My concern with being a participant on your course is that I continue to stay in that story of I'm not there yet (wherever there is, I hope you get what I mean.)So I'm torn. The content of the course sounds amazing and clearly I am still in the same old story living hand to mouth on Universal Credit  etc.But how long do I stay a participant for? Is that serving me?

Listener question:  I do feel like it's groundhog day over here.  Currently I'm gripped with fear.  I'm trying to stay with the sensations and tell myself that any story I'm attaching isn't true.  It seems like it is true that I keep having the same experience.  The work I do is so intimate, and having panic attacks here is so difficult, but I guess that's what you mean about going in the other direction deeper into the story.  I listen, and read and think 'oh yes, this makes sense and it's very true' and then there I am one on one at work and all of that flies out of the window and I'm stuck in another panic attack.  The body/mind is so quick to go there, for many reasons (yes lots of evidence to back up the stories).  I do also watch and notice.  There's two tracks going on, one that goes down into the story and the other that looks at it.  The former seems to win out as I dread the future scenarios stronger than I can see clearly what's really going on. I know it's all the things you talk about ie protection, control, pushing away experience, but that's where I'm at and seemingly not shifting.There's something more for me to see around this no self present day accountability.  I'll listen some more and see if any questions come to mind.  

Listener question:  I noticed that if I get stressed, that I try to "do the same thing" that worked last time. I sort of see that the last time something "worked out" it wasn't because I did something specific with the controlling mind. But at the same time I remember doing things like observing overwhelming feelings (which seems to have helped me a lot). How do I not make this a technique? (which is definitely a question of a controlling mind..)

I am wondering if you could talk a little about comparison as compared to judgment. I see them as kind of the same thing - when I judge something I am seeing myself/projecting and when I am comparing, I am…what? So in other words what is the difference between comparison and judgement? Thank you for any input you have. 

Excerpt from From the Heart by Nicola DrewExplorations in consciousness and unconditional love 

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Not that long ago, I found out that someone who means a lot to me has been deceiving me for months, hiding the truth from me and essentially lying even though we had conversations about that and promised to be radically honest with each other! It hit me like a tonne of bricks. That truth, had I known it, would have changed almost everything in my relation to this connection, my decisions etc. All of the sudden, since I found out, there was very much the separate me who was hurting and felt betrayed by this person, the separate other. I noticed that this has always been a huge thing for me. To know the truth and the thought of someone who I deeply care about hiding something from me (for mostly selfish reasons) that has to do with me and /or directly affects me brings a huge amount of anxiety after the fact, caused by the utter disbelief that that person I trusted fully could have done this to me. But it’s always only after the fact, when I think back to what happened. There is not distrust or anxiety when I enter any relationship, interestingly. I ask myself, what’s at stake here. Why when I find out someone I care about has been deceiving, the utter disbelief that they would do that TO ME and the anxiety that comes with that and then the self-blame for not seeing that are astounding! It doesn’t even help knowing that in a way I’m a hypocrite, because I have hidden the truth from people I care about, I simply thought my reasons were noble! (Laughing at myself as I write this part).  The impact of it really caught me of guard as I never thought that something like this could hit me this hard anymore. I know that this is a personal story but I feel that I’m not the only one who’s been deceived or lied to by people who we care about so I thought others may benefit from you addressing this subject. I’d greatly appreciate that.