Listener question: the hopelessness of no free will

Listener question: The more I realize that I am not the doer, life is completely predetermined (because of all the things which happened before I had no influence on like upbringing  and genes and because of time and space). I just have the feeling of self will but it is an illusion. The feeling of worthlessness, senselessness, nothing to hope for and fix and aim for brings me to a very desperate place.