Being true to myself: listener question

hi lovely i just wondered if you could talk about how, you can stay true to your own self in the mist of everyone's else's truth like today I lost someone that I love very much and it was her funeral today and of course i went but i couldn't stay at the wake for very long i felt very sick i aways do even at my own dads i left i slip out i duck out the back i just go and be on my own just to be by myself. but after i do this behaviour my family don't talk to me they ostracise me; they won't talk to me for weeks i have to go around trying to make up with them sometimes in these situations i feel like a lion, without its pride, or just alone i love my family so much i don't feel separate from them just that i behave a bit different and in this i feel alone and then i become a bit desperate to get them back