Do the Thing : Listener question

Hi Clare,

I have a question about the 'do the thing' thing.😂

This is quite a topic at the moment in the group and also you mentioned it in one Play video again in the context of looking for a good feeling. 

I get the concept intellectually, and I also 'do the thing' for many years now, about seven or so, I feel the sensations, survive the thing, and on it goes again. Next time: same debilitating symptoms, same freeze, nausea, not being able to concentrate on anything else, like the life is on hold until it's over. 

So maybe you say that I want it to go away: Yes I do! How could I not, it's such an intense suffering, I would also remove my hand from a hot stove and not put it again and again and again back for years. As a biological system we are wired to avoid pain, so it seems to me unavoidable to want it to go away. I still face it when it's there and want it to go away at the same time.

Ironically not doing the thing doesn't feel right eather. So tricky. I could easily stop but for some weird reason I just don't. And when the next offer comes, yes is beeing said, although I wanted to not accept those offers anymore.

It seems like a lifelong sentence to suffering.

What I am not seeing?

Thank you for any thoughts.