Ep. 85 My Perimenopausal Meltdown: The Episode I Didn’t Want to Share

I am nervous posting this podcast…as this was not the episode I planned to release.

We spend our lives trying to stay put together and neat. Keeping our hurt hidden and our smiles big.

This podcast shows a very different side of me. A side of Heidi that has real insecurities that run deep. A side of Heidi that feels pain and actually does care what others think about her even when she says she doesn’t.

While the strong Heidi is me…this is also me, and it’s not easy to share.

Today, you are witnessing a real life hormonal meltdown. What was supposed to be an informational conversation turned into something very different...an unfiltered conversation I’m still shocked I’m allowing the world to see.

In this episode, I open up about the emotional toll of shifting hormones, irregular cycles, feeling overwhelmed by life, work, motherhood, pressure, aging, and the weight so many women silently carry. I also share why this episode was so hard for me to put out into the world...and why I decided to share it anyway.

The truth is, the episodes that feel the hardest to release are often the ones that make the biggest impact. So if you’ve been feeling messy, emotional, stretched thin, less like yourself, or just plain alone in this season...this one is for you.

And if you love someone who’s walking through hormonal changes, this episode might help you understand her a little better too.

You are not broken. You are not crazy. And you are definitely not alone.

We talk about:

• What it feels like to hit your emotional limit 
• The pressure of being the one who always has the answers
• Hormones, perimenopause, and identity shifts no one prepares you for
• The grief of feeling like your best years are behind you
• Being judged as a woman and as a mother, no matter what you do
• The gap between how life looks and how it actually feels

This one is part life update, part emotional dump, part honest reminder that even the strong ones have days where they fall apart.

And maybe that’s not a bad thing.

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Here are the key moments from the episode:

00:00 This Episode Wasn’t Meant to Go Live

03:11 The Last Straw That Broke Me (It Wasn’t Just One Thing)

06:24 Why This Messy Episode Matters

10:07 Hormones, Missing Periods & Feeling Off in My Own Body

15:02 Mom Guilt, Doris, & Being Judged Online

17:28 Why Women Get Criticized No Matter What They Do

21:04 What Hate Comments Really Say About People

24:13 The Pressure of Running a Business No One Sees

26:07 Carrying Financial Responsibility & Providing for Everyone

30:18 Feeling Buried by Your Own Life (I’m Sick of Making Decisions)

34:58 Aging, Identity & What If This Makes Me Unlovable?

38:22 Wanting Back What You Once Hated (I Just Want a Normal Period)

41:40 Strong Most Days… But Today I Broke (I Don’t Even Feel Pretty)

44:01 The Moment I Wanted to Quit Everything

47:07 You’re Not Alone in This

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