Feeling Alone? Trust Him.

by Autumn Dickson

The Old Testament is full of imperfect people. There is strife and difficulty. Families struggle together. We see people who are trying to follow God, sometimes in desperation, and they make mistakes along the way. We see a whole spectrum of human emotion. It makes me wonder how much we’re missing in the New Testament. We often tease about how the Old Testament and New Testament are so different, but are they truly? Or were they just written differently? Perhaps the curtain just gets peeled back a tad bit more with the Old Testament and we get to see the bad along with the good.

This week, we read about some of those imperfect people, and there is much to learn from them. We can learn from their mistakes in our own quest to follow after God. We can learn to watch our own predilections and flaws and hopefully avoid some of their same obstacles. I want to look at Jacob and Rebekah specifically.

It took a while for Rebekah to get pregnant, but when she did, she got pregnant with twins. They wrestled within her and caused her to ask the Lord what was going on. He spoke to Rebekah (likely through the Spirit) and told her that from the two brothers, two nations would be formed. It was also prophesied that the older would serve the younger.

Esau was born first and was Isaac’s favorite, and Jacob was born second and was Rebekah’s favorite. Rebekah had received a revelation that Esau would serve Jacob, but she took matters into her own hands. Isaac spoke to Esau and told him to prepare a dinner so that Esau could be blessed. Rebekah pushes and convinces Jacob to trick his father. This is what she tells Jacob.

Genesis 27:8-10

8 Now therefore, my son, obey my voice according to that which I command thee.

9 Go now to the flock, and fetch me from thence two good kids of the goats; and I will make them savoury meat for thy father, such as he loveth:

10 And thou shalt bring it to thy father, that he may eat, and that he may bless thee before his death.

She convinces Jacob to pretend to be Esau. Isaac is blind, and so the idea is that Isaac will give Esau’s blessing to Jacob. She takes the ruse even further by placing the hairy skins upon Jacob to further trick Isaac into thinking that Jacob is Esau (since Esau is hairy and Jacob isn’t).

Her ruse works. Isaac is tricked and gives the birthright blessing to Jacob rather than Esau. Esau comes home and is bitter and upset about what happened. He mourns his father but promises to kill Jacob when the mourning is over. Rebekah sends Jacob far away to her brother, Laban.

Jacob’s life isn’t made easier after this. He has been separated from his family. He starts working for his uncle and is tricked more than once. His uncle likewise changes his wages unjustly multiple times. The Lord calls upon Jacob to take his large family back home to where Esau is and Jacob fears his uncle and cousins enough that he tries to do it secretly.

It’s a long story, but I told the whole thing because the context is key in order to understand the principle I want to teach. I’ll shorten it to these four details. God whispers to Rebekah. Rebekah takes matters into her own hands, and Jacob listens. Jacob finds himself exiled.

Now the fraud and sin are not upon the head of Jacob alone. Rebekah pushed for this pretty hard; Jacob gave in and listened and did as his mother bade him. Both of them found themselves with poignant parallels.

When we don’t trust the Lord, we can find ourselves separated from family. Let me explain what I mean. I don’t necessarily mean that the Lord is going to exile you. I’m not prophesying that your children are going to be taken away. What I am teaching is this: not trusting the Lord can keep you separated from the family of God, spiritually and emotionally. It can make you feel like you’re all alone in the world.

Jacob had to go off on his own and try to make his own way. He didn’t have anyone to lean on. Do you feel that way? Do you feel that you have no one to lean on?

If you’ve been baptized and made covenants and kept those covenants and love the Lord but still don’t trust in His power to handle things (including your sins), you’re going to find yourself separated from Him. Not because He rejects you for not trusting Him, but because you are putting up a wall and keeping yourself from enjoying the relationship that’s possible.

Trust in the Lord is an irreplaceable part of the gospel of Jesus Christ. You can do all of the things, but it won’t matter without the trust. Rebekah was trying to help the prophecy along, and all it did was take her son away from her. She didn’t trust the Lord to handle it. It separated her from her loved one. Jacob listened and found himself separated from everyone.

I sat down with a loved one a couple of years ago, and she confided in me that she didn’t think she would make it to the Celestial Kingdom. She insisted that she had made many mistakes and didn’t know whether God would count her worthy. It made me so thoroughly sad. Sure, there had been mistakes, but there wasn’t a drop of rebellion in her. She loved the Lord and wanted to do what He wanted her to do.

And yet despite her goodness, she didn’t believe she could make it. Her lack of trust kept her from enjoying so many aspects of salvation right here and now. It kept her exiled and alone without anyone to lean on.

Do you know how good it feels to be a child of God? To feel close to Him even when you can’t see Him? It feels good. It feels tangible. I do not feel alone. I do not feel like I have to do this life on my own or figure out how to be okay all by myself without anyone to back me up. Trust in the Lord (whether that’s timing or unwanted answers or His ability to save) gave that to me.

If you feel that you’re supposed to be somewhere and it’s not coming together, don’t force it. Work appropriately, and trust Him. Trusting Him will keep you close rather than alone.

I testify that the Lord loves us. I testify that He wants to be close to us. I testify that His command for us to trust Him is a command because He knows it’s one of the most powerful tools for joy and peace. We are not alone. We do not have to take things into our own hands. We have an all-powerful Lord to guide us and lead us and open doors at the right times. We can rest, knowing He has our best interest in His capable hands.

 

Autumn Dickson was born and raised in a small town in Texas. She served a mission in the Indianapolis Indiana mission. She studied elementary education but has found a particular passion in teaching the gospel. Her desire for her content is to inspire people to feel confident, peaceful, and joyful about their relationship with Jesus Christ and to allow that relationship to touch every aspect of their lives. Autumn was the recipient of FAIR’s 2024 John Taylor Defender of the Faith Award.

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