Do You Have Yourself In The First Place?

This episode is a continuation of our conversation, “Is Jesus Really in the First Place?”—but this time, we turn the lens inward and ask the harder question: What happens when we are in the first place? We explore how the temptation to prioritize ourselves is often rooted in fear—the quiet doubt that asks, “If I fully trust God, will He actually come through for me?” Through the stories of the widow’s offering (Mark 12:41–44) and the woman who anointed Jesus at Bethany (Mark 14:3–9), we see powerful examples of women who had very little, yet gave everything. Their actions reveal hearts marked by full abandonment—choosing trust over self-preservation, even in the face of ridicule and lack. We unpack how Scripture is filled with promises that support a life of surrender: that our Father knows our needs, that those who seek Him lack no good thing, and that God delights in caring for His children. When we cling to control and prefer ourselves, we leave no room for Him to move—but when we release it all, we make space for a God who is faithful on the other side.