I Said I'm Fine for 40 Years and Never Meant It Once - AA Speaker - David L.

David spent every Saturday planning how to drown himself and 22 years smiling and saying "I'm fine" — until a sponsor gave him two lines to say to his son and everything cracked open. We just launched our new Episodes page — search hundreds of AA speaker meetings by topic, speaker, or step ☀️  Sober-Sunrise.com David shares a clear and deeply relatable story about living most of his life believing he simply wasn’t good enough, constantly trying to fix himself by changing external circumstances while never understanding the role alcohol played in his thinking and behavior. For over forty years, he cycled through jobs, relationships, and self-improvement attempts, convinced that if he could just try harder or be different, everything would finally fall into place. It wasn’t until entering treatment and being introduced to Alcoholics Anonymous that he first encountered the idea that alcoholism is a disease rather than a personal failure, a shift that changed everything. Through the Twelve Steps, David began to understand that relief didn’t come from fixing himself, but from accepting his condition, surrendering his own solutions, and learning a new way to live rooted in honesty, humility, and connection with others in recovery.
David L. from Holly Springs, NC speaking at the 28th Gopher State Roundup - May 25th-27th 2001
Music: Deep by KaizanBlu