A Slight Change of Plans What If Closure Never Comes?
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Apr 14, 2026 Helena de Groot, radio producer and creator of Creation Myth, recounts a life-long certainty about not having children and how an unexpected pregnancy shattered that belief. She talks about shifting reasons, intense anxiety, choosing abortion, the marriage fallout, and learning to live with lingering what-ifs and recurring decisions.
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How Social Pushback Cemented A No
- Helena de Groot spent her 20s telling strangers she didn't want kids, but repeated pushback hardened her stance into an absolute no.
- Persistent criticisms and inability to articulate a single reason made her doubt herself and search for proof she was right.
Pregnancy Brought Temporary Clarity Then Panic
- Helena discovered she was pregnant after years of arguing with her husband David about having children and initially felt calm, capable, and transformed.
- The ecstatic moment with David and two weeks of hormonal confidence were followed by a rapid hormonal crash into amplified anxiety.
Choosing Abortion Out Of Responsibility
- Facing inability to shield a child from her anxiety, Helena chose to terminate the pregnancy because she felt she couldn't provide the emotional stability a child deserved.
- The decision weighed heavily due to anticipated hurt to David and wasn't taken lightly.