I currently feel as though I'm putting in a lot of mental effort to be 'conscious' of my thoughts and to bring awareness to what is being believed and felt in the moment. It's like a huge amount of self-talk back and forth with the ego. Especially in those moments of heightened anxiety or in anticipation of future events, I am trying to coach myself or rationalise the feelings in order to calm down*. I definitely have an increasing level of awareness but it has not become natural or effortless. Is it likely to become more effortless in the future?
