Listener question: friendships ending

Listener question: Ever since I’ve become more aware I seem to have no mates and especially with my boss as we were mates before she became my boss now I just cannot stand being around her it’s like my body just wants to run the other way even though I know it’s me and can never be her .But is it just ok to let her go and have no friendship I do try to stay so present around her but it’s not happening I have to walk away out of meetings go and breathe. I mean I never tell her this I just feel so unkind to her and I’m not enlightened enough but what I’m trying to say is - can it ever be just we don’t like each other fair enough or do I always have to be around that pain? And this is not just happening with her lots of people even people I love so much.