Bari Mitzmann: My Fear of Hashem Was Destroying Me

Mar 14, 2026

01:08:49

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Inspiration for the Nation is the weekly Jewish podcast from Living Lchaim, hosted by Yaakov Langer.

Bari Mitzmann (Barianna) grew up in typical frum setting but life took a giant turn. Hear her powerful journey through religious anxiety, panic attacks, and a crisis of faith while growing up in the Orthodox Jewish world. From the outside she looked inspiring - building a social media following, leading communities, and encouraging others in their Jewish faith and observance. But behind the scenes she was living in constant fear that God was punishing her. In this raw conversation, Bari opens up about scrupulosity, mental health in Judaism, fear-based religion, therapy, and rebuilding a healthy relationship with Hashem. This episode explores how faith, mental health, and personal growth intersect and how honest conversations can help people struggling silently.