Connection and disconnect: listener question

I was listening to the podcast about ‘Why do I shut down?’ As you know I’ve been experiencing anxiety and depression, everything has improved a bit even the low mood isn’t as low but the comment about triggers in the podcast and information that is being given made me curious. I notice that I am constantly comparing my life to others and as my life circumstances currently don’t feel favourable (although I know that is very outside-in) I have feelings of jealously, lack of connection and despondency that things will never improve, while at the same time not begrudging anyone else their joy and abundance. I am observing and trying to be with the feeling without judgement, sometimes easier than others when you want to feel better. Also wondered about that feeling of striving to move connected, reaching out to friends to meet and when they are busy taking it personally and starting the despondency cycle again. Seems like the striving to say connected is an attempt to be validated and being isolated feels like death as you put it on this weeks webinar. We are social animals so if feels natural to want to connect. I wondered if you had anything to say these points.