Real Recovery Talk 589: Why I Kept Relapsing on C***aine (Until I Finally Did This)
Jan 14, 2026
Mikel Callahan, who battled long-term cocaine and alcohol addiction and multiple treatment attempts, shares his recovery journey. He discusses dodging tests, finding Rock Recovery, the difference between short fixes and deep residential work, the importance of AA, sponsorship, trauma work, and balancing recovery with family and work.
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The Line That Triggered Surrender
- Mikel described his final pre-surrender binge that pushed him to seek help: driving long distances to buy coke after a Seahawks game.
- After doing a line and drinking, he finally surrendered and called Rock Recovery for admission late that night.
Treatment Must Teach Real Life Not Just Meetings
- Mikel realized short enclosed 30-day programs taught little practical living skills for real life.
- He valued Rock Recovery's model where residents practice chores, job tasks, and weekend outings to learn sober life skills.
Program Over Willpower
- Working a 12-step program transformed Mikel from relying on willpower to gaining connection and accountability.
- Regular meetings, a sponsor, and step work dropped heavy emotional weights and rebuilt character and honesty.
