Monogamy and Clandestine Adultery

I had a really horrible breakup just like yours. I loved her so much but I just said I couldn't it. So I decided Forget about it. Just I'm gonna go off and I'm gonna live how I should be living. But when you stay in this this gray zone it just drags out her own pain. She's incredible and I love her to death That's the challenge, right? And that's why like and that's why you say oh, here's what was wrong with me. You're not even saying things at all because they aren't discussed at all. We were gonna do this everyone just listening. Oh my gosh! This is such a beautiful thing