The Only Reason Why I Have to Hold on to This Religion

In my head, success is the same as not being religious. O what do i need this religion? I don't want to be backwards. Why else do i have to hold on to this religion? And the only reason i'm not questioning it because if i question it, my mother will have a hard attack. So these perceptions that are constantly being bombarded to you, and i even the adults are infected by it. It's weird. One time, i went to play basket ball with some young guys in america in a place, and it was time for salon. We go in a corner, and a few of us prayed. And the other boys, than normally they pray