Is God's Sovereignty Counter-Integrity?

Many sincere christians would probably be where you were at. Maybe when you first started talking to ted, they'd be uncomfortable. They might even be angry with the thought of god's sovereignty being described in this way. And so what did that process actually of your mind changing? Was there an intellectual change? That happened in your mind as you read scripture. But did that kind of precede an emotional change, or like this, a more intuitive sense of like, this feels wrong. This doesn't feel like it should be.