The Power of Memories

I was really kind of nihilistic for many years. I knew that there was something about reality that I couldn't quite put my finger on. So got into sleep meditation and then noticed how effective it was. Then started heading into the metaphysical section of the library and reading lots of books, esoteric knowledge. And yeah, things got very mystical and my intuition was loud. That's when I realized this is a process of remembering whatever is going on right now. This is much more profound than any obsessions before. But this is transforming my whole world to the point where I'm not even the same person that I was a year ago.