Is It a Mask or a Remedy for Not Fitting In?

I was a hyperac im hyperactive adult also, which is also rare. And i ed up hyper focusing on my career and my companies and ignoring everything else. So i missed out on a lot of things. The character that i net up playing masked my abilities, masked my differences, and then masking certain symptoms so i can fit in. It's like there's a big front stage, like a play or a show, and people have no idea what's going on back stage. We pretty much don't want to tell them, because we think they'd either never get it, be horrified, be superconfused, judge us. Who knows what we're worried about, probably