What if I Smothered Him?

Kim watched her mother crush more pills in lloyd's coffee, in his soup. She heard a racket behind the bedroom door as Lloyd was trying to go to the bathroom. The only i understood was lloyd had said, what in hell is wrong with me? And he kept falling into the wall. Kim says she muffled the silent voice at her head that asked why she was being sent to the store to buy sleeping pills. When you went on that errand did you have any notion of what they were for? Did you understand why? You did. I think i was too afraid to comprehend what was going on. But she remembers, she said, clear as if it was this