Allahu Akbar, You're a Good Person.

When the Prophet Salala Salaam received first revelation, he came to Khadija the Allahu anha asking her or telling her what happened. And this is what happened: He says, hug me. Give me a tight hug. What you might have perceived to be something challenging is actually a blessing. You don't know were you a bad evil person if not by the one of Allah. This is the mercy.