Emotional Cost and Dissociation

Go to talkiatry.com/lecrae to get matched with a psychiatrist today Sleep well at night with code Lecrae for 30% at brooklynbedding.com Use code lecraestreak for $2.99/meal on everyplate.com/podcast Joshua Broome grew up in a small South Carolina town of 3,000 people, the son of two 15-year-olds who never dated, and watched his father through a restaurant window for years without ever hearing his voice. That father wound sent him chasing significance all the way to Hollywood, where he became one of the most prominent adult film stars in the industry under the name Raquel Reed, appearing in over a thousand films.

But behind the fame was a man quietly unraveling. In this raw and unflinching conversation with Lecrae, Joshua pulls back the curtain on what the adult film industry actually looks like from the inside, the suicidal ideation that nearly ended his life, a sexual assault in Paris he never told anyone about, and the moment a bank teller said his real name for the first time in 18 months and changed everything.

Now a pastor, husband, and father, Joshua talks about what healing actually looks like after trauma, why porn has nothing to do with sex and everything to do with intimacy, and how a woman named Hope and a heavenly Father gave him back his identity. This one goes deep. Don't say we didn't warn you!

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Chapter Markers

0:00 - Cold Open

1:17 - Introducing Joshua Broome

3:06 - Growing Up Fatherless

8:03 - First Exposure to Porn & the Spiral Begins

14:44 - Chasing Fame in Hollywood

21:26 - How He Got Recruited Into the Adult Film Industry

28:47 - The Reality on Set

40:08 - When Reality Started Breaking Through

43:30 - 47 Friends Dead: The Industry's Hidden Toll

45:16 - The Night in Paris & Suicidal Ideation

51:47 - The Bank Teller Who Said His Real Name

55:39 - Hearing the Gospel for the First Time

58:46 - The Real Work of Healing

1:00:21 - Marriage, Hope & Fighting the Lies

1:10:22 - The Depth of Confession

1:13:14 - What People Don't Know About the Adult Film Industry

1:19:10 - Becoming a Father & Forgiving His Own Dad

1:24:53 - Miscarriage, New Life & Choosing Hope Over Fear

1:27:28 - Closing: Tell Somebody